Life

Life

long time no see

What a pleasure it is

to have you so close to me

To face you with sparkling eyes

To feel the warmth of your embrace

To tell you that I didn’t give up on you

For years, it was you, me and this distance between us

Like the distance between Peru and Cambodia

Or the distance between the Sun and Neptune

Only for a few moments here and there

I was able to get close to you

To touch you

To smell you

To see you

But most of the time I was looking for you

I was looking for you under my wounds and scars

that were so deep, I was almost drowning in them

I was looking for you in the emptiness of my soul

That refused to be filled with everything you had to offer

I searched and searched for years to find you

As if I was looking for a hidden treasure far away or buried deep in the ground under a tree

But in order to find you, I only had to find myself again

Not that it was easy

Not that it was painless

I had to look for the careless child within me

and bring her back to life

I had to face my fears

and be able to open that locked door in the middle of the night

But now that I have found you again

Now that I have freed myself from the darkness

I can say this from the bottom of my heart:

Life

What a pleasure it is

To have you so close to me again

To face you with sparkling eyes

To feel the warmth of your embrace

To tell you

that I didn’t give up on you!

4 October 2022, Amsterdam